big scream!!!!!!!!

That last post I wrote way before I published it. I was feeling great, but then the struggle with Miriam began. No nap today so she was being difficult, trying to annoy me just for kicks, just like her dad. I started chewing my nails and feeling like I just wanted to eat. Like I wanted to eat out of frustration, or anxiety. I needed to be free of all the noise, chaos and annoyance. I put her to bed at 7, at least an hour earlier than normal. I just needed peace, serenity, quiet, alone time. The hunger is gone. I will need to go to sleep early tonight because I put her to bed so early, she won't stay in bed till 10. Sorry Nan but I need to take care of myself. That is what this is all about.