tough time

Costco was so hard!!! I am hungry!! I want to eat so bad, I want to drink, almost out of my junk, how will I survive without it!! The thought depresses me!!! It terrifies me. Why is it so hard to change my life?? I just want to be happy healthy and clean, but doing the work is not easy at all!! Fernando got my fav dish from Vien Dong, got in the car and put it in my lap, nice. It smelled so good. I put all the groceries away while he ate. I juiced cantelope delicious, made another glass and added blueberries. I feel better now.